2005-09-20 - 9:43 p.m.
FREEZE. the water isn't cold, i'll jump in with my shoes on. the windows are down, can you see the sirens? they're going the wrong way. you sneeze. my eyes are tired. can we sleep? we stop. its dark when the lights are off, but i can still see you. you said your focus is better in the dark. maybe i was prettier then. maybe she's prettier now. maybe your eyes were never open in the first place. the moon is close. i begged you not to go, but it never came out. the dirt is wet, its all over. you slipped, i fell. two more seconds, just two more. two more tries, give me forever. please. smothered by a pillow that wasn't yours, i saw your secrets. i aided with compassion and you pushed. i couldn't push back. i ruined what you already wrecked. i was reassured a perfect lie. i was it because you told me so. i thought i shivered from the jump in. i thought you grabbed on to keep us warm. when you told me to go, it was time. i walk and walk and walk. my feet hurt. i'm starving. i find nothing for direction, i'm lost. i forgot which street is right. if i cry, i'm too emotional. my head hurts. i look for you. i look and look and look.
